Even When It Hurts

Take this mountain weight

Take these ocean tears

Hold me through the trial

Come like hope again

Even when the fight seems lost

I’ll praise You


My Testimony

I first came to know Christ when I was young, when my aunt had told me about the Good News and I had simply accepted it as a fact that Jesus is God, as she prayed with me in words I didn’t fully understand at that time.

I was then baptised after a few years of attending Sunday school, again only accepting on the surface about who God is based on what I remembered out of Sunday school. It was simply a normal course of action as a second generation Christian.

It wasn’t until when I was teenager that I came to wrestle with the concept of God as I was struggling to establish my own identity. Like many teenagers, I was insecure about my appearance, my achievements and what my peers thought of me. I was shy, reserved and strived hard to be a good kid. I was more than aware about all my ‘flaws’ and weaknesses without needing anyone to tell me, and so the concept of sin and how far I fall short of God’s glory was fairly comprehensible to me as I struggled with my self-worth.

A camp called LifeGame was a turning point in my walk with Christ, where my struggle with the meaning of life and my identity was further fueled. God’s saving grace was presented to me in a different light, which was unfathomable yet humbling because even though I am so underserving of His grace, He has freely given it to me it and there was nothing I could do to earn it. I decided at the end of the camp to surrender my life to Jesus, because Matthew 16: 25 says “for whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it”.

When I begin to root my identity in Christ, He enabled me to serve Him in many different ways and I started seeing a purpose in life. I realised that the hope that God gives not only makes Him worth dying for, but also to live for. Time and time again, He reminded me of His grace which carried me through many seasons of self-doubt.

If I were to pick a verse to summarise my walk with God, it would be 2 Corinthians 12:9 -“But He said to me, โ€œMy grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.โ€ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

Christ is more than my salvation – He is also my strength, my hope and my purpose.